Updated: Nov 14
To many people, food might be an easy matter, almost trivial, especially amongst certain ages. However, I’m sure that for some others it’s more than ‘just food’.
As teenagers, food is often used as a way to either suppress or express emotions. It is a major pleasure which can be used in order to soothe or even reward you. It is not very uncommon for people to feel like they do not deserve food and use excessive exercise as a way to justify eating.
Mirrors! Something I definitely wish I would have avoided was sizing myself up in front of a mirror. Looking at yourself and complaining is never going to help. On the contrary, it is going to be one of the main habits that will force you into some of those crazy diets, or even worse.
Not long ago, I went through something very similar… This turned into an extremely addictive cycle of events which took time and help (which is definitely recommended) to overcome. Most days, I would feel quite hungry but ignore it. I would starve myself all day (as a way to lift my self-esteem, and it worked) only to feel so weak and faint that I would binge as if there was no tomorrow! That wasn’t even the worst part. After that, I would feel so guilty that I would go to extreme measures to ‘get rid’ of those calories.
Little by little, that destroyed me… My blood pressure would drop, which made me faint. Sometimes, I would feel so weak that I was not even able to work out (which was a big hit for me since I love sports). It was the worst period of my life, a time where everything orbited around my weight and now that I look back at it, it was almost totally irrational. It was all pretty much psychological since I was quite healthy before that ‘habit’.
To sum up, it is absolutely normal to fall into something like that, our relationship with food is quite complex, especially in this day and age where how others perceive us is pretty much everything. Nevertheless, if anyone ever finds themselves in a similar situation, be sure to know that there are always people that you can trust and who will help you feel like yourself again. It’s ok to be vulnerable if it means coming back stronger!
About the author:
My name is Louisa Vichou and I’m a 14 year old aspiring writer who loves painting, pretty much all sports, singing and piano. However, (like all the greats) I have an arch-enemy... maths!
drawing by NEONCURRY